letting go?

hey ppl. sorry I haven't been on and used this lovely site like I should have. sometimes I forget such important things.recently, I've spent many hours up nite after nite week after week. lookin for answers to my little boy's illness. e started comin home from school, being sick and just sleeping the complete opposite. a few times wen his temperature got so high, I thought i was gonna lose him a few times. I prayed so hard for GOD not to take him yet, I love him so much. we got thru it. but sure enuf he came home from school again the same little differences. for the second time it was a cough. so bad it made him sick and hurt his head and throat. I prayed to GOD to take it out of him and put it in me, true enuf. I got it too lost my voice and al tho alfie still had it I was there Havin it too rite beside him. he got better again. then I started gettin the urge to look strange things up, really far out stuff am some not, from zombies, to foods that GOD has given us to heal, such as papaya, mangos, celery, Dandelions, it opened such a huge alternative medical kit for me to make alfie better every time he got ill. I started lookin up my rites when social services came calling because of time he had off, there's more too it than that but just to keep it as small as possible lol. one day alfie came back and told me he'd had a shot? described in great detail, what this school nurse had done to him. I cried so hard that nite, cos I knew they knew but would never admit to it. they were blaming things on me because it would help. he begged not to send him back. I was in complete despair. til I was told, exactly what I've written already on my page. I did my best and still am, but I ain't crying no more. GOD has warned so many ppl inadvertently through me, by Havin to endure the laughing and finger pointing and accusations, by sayin wat happened, Havin. to reveal so many things that made them hurt all over again, now wat my son describe at 5, has been Proven, in such a way it wil stick in the minds of mothers, so wen the time comes they know they have to do somethin not be so passive and accept it just because someone was called a professional by an authority I Dnt recognizes and who despises our GOD. so I think. there's a reason for this, keep close to your loved ones ppl, these we know are the.end times. it may not be the end of something beautiful, maybe its comin to an end and GOD is giving you.some time or a head start to think. pray for courage to take a leap into the unknown, with GOD holding your hand you know already what he has in store. we see his miracles every day yet we think maybe he won't give us wat we want, no unless its wat we need? be glad of these trials.and know when to accept his will. cos we all know if we don't it will be the long way round again. be excited for.wat e has in store
bless.you all and stay close to him. love max n alfie x x x