My testimony of YES

Glorious Morning Saints of the Most High,

I have a testimony! I was ordained Evangelist on Friday, December 12, 2008, Hallelujah Thank you Jesus for the Great things you have done!

Well I wanted to share with you that day. I was at a Leadership Conference and God was dealing with me since Wednesday. I'm writing a blog on the experience/encounter with God. Anyway this Friday Morning I woke up and went to prayer. Jr. Pastor Samuel Jones was praying I came in the room and immediately The Holy Spirit fell on me like a ton of bricks I fell to my knees and began to moan…..really it was a groan deep down inside. God started talking to me about when I let the enemy in through sadness, disappointment, rejection, shame, bitterness and anger he just slipped right in my heart.

The exact moment I thought God didn't care although I keep going and doing the things God required of me deep down inside I felt Jesus didn't care about me any more, however because I had profess Jesus and my testimony was at stake I continue on my journey. The pain was so well hidden but the more things happen in my life the pain rose up and surface being a Prayer warrior and worshipper I glossed over it and say it was not there. As I was groaning deep down inside God was healing me of my thoughts he was there all the time through all those lonely/sleepless nights, the sickness, shame and even frustration. I could feel a weight lifting off my shoulder and the emptiness in my stomach being filled with love and hope. I could hope again; I did matter and God cared all about what I was going through!

Anyway Jr Pastor said when you can stand up I feel in my spirit that God wants a YES. (Footnote: Well I didn't tell you I was giving up on God and especially my ministry, that another story.) So as I got off my knees I can hear God say to me say Yes, so I said Yes, he said it again say Yes and I said Lord I said Yes; God said NO listen to me I want a Yes say Yes to the pain because You will experience Pain, say Yes to the hurt because you will experience hurt again, say Yes to persecution because You Will be persecute, Say Yes to the Shame, doubt and frustration, Say yes because I never guarantee it would be easy, but I do require YOU, Daughter to say YES; God said Daughter say Yes to the suffering for you will suffer for my name sake, Say Yes to the lies oh they are going to lie on YOU, deceive You so say Yes! I am requiring today a complete YES! As I heard the Lord say go ahead say Yes from you belly and mean it I want a Yes for real a SOLD OUT YES, So I began to say Yes with everything in me, Yes Lord I WILL FOR YOU; I HEARD MYSELF SAY I WOULD DO THIS FOR ANYBODY BUT YOU LORD THAT LIVES MAY BE CHANGED AND EYE OPEN TO SEE JESUS AND HEART HEALED. SO EVERYTHING IN ME SAID YES!

I want to share with you be careful what you are saying YES many of us are quick to say YES not knowing what we are saying Yes too. When I said Yes I would serve you for the rest of my life. I didn’t know I would have to suffer for the cause of Christ; I was ill equip because of the lack of teaching in the body of Christ so as I suffer being a Minister I didn’t know it had nothing to do with me but the anointing in my life, the work assigned to my hands and the people I would be entrusted with, God needed to know that no matter come or no matter what may come I would still hold up the blood stain banner and proclaim Jesus as Lord and Savior of my life. The first ministry I was in forgot to teach me what suffering was so as I suffered I thought it was something I was doing wrong, when I joined STM/NDWC I became aware of what saying YES really meant! (Footnote: We must teach God's people his word and especially point them to the ministry of Christ, Paul, Peter, Stephen etc so that they know that being a Minister, Evangelist, Prophet, Apostle is not a glamorous position there is a cost for the anointing.)

God reveal to me on my face because after awhile somewhere between the moans and groans I fell prostrate in the presence of a Holy God. I celebrate God today because he chose me and came to see about his Daughter, his servant personally! THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY was concern about my title my position was his concern, he cared about me his daughter and my representation of his glory! God was mindful and careful of the anointing resting in my bosom, careful of my witness and the need to preserve my eternal position in his kingdom! Hallelujah, I thank God because it was not my out exterior he mindful of but my inner man and God knew I need to be strength for the journey. I think God could have left me in that state of mind but he didn't because it was bigger than what I thought it was about me doing his will complying Men/Women/Boys/Girls to be saved that the love I showed was untainted, Hallelujah!

So all along my life was in his hand and God had me all the times I survived my daughter being raped, I survived my son announce to me he was going to do him live a life contrary to what I raise him to be, I survived the devil coming in my face telling me time after time I would never amount to anyone and no one believe a word I say, I survived feeling like a failure, I survived my oldest daughter walking out on me and making me ashamed, I survived the divorce, being homeless and ridiculed, I survived being rejected over and over again, I survived with no money in my pocket, I survived being past over in ministry, I survived the lies and deception, I survived watching the devil shift my children as wheat, I survived hearing NO (Yeah hearing go say NO end of story), I survived the backbiting and my name being run in the mud, I survived people calling me friend & Mom only to stab me in my back, I survived people talking about me like I was a dog and had no place on earth, I survived wanting to kill myself, I survived trusting people who meant me harm, Yes I survived by the grace of God! As I laid there groaning from my belly I saw the Lord and he was there all the time with the box of tissue, wooing me to get up, chastising me, loving me, and honoring me. Jesus was there protecting me and taking the blunt of each blow! I never thought of that Jesus took the blunt of each hit I only felt the aftershock of it all!

God wanted to take me to a higher place in Jesus deeper depth of whom he is, my blinded eyes was open to see Yeah Woe it was me standing in the need of healing, I was so busy praying for others, helping others that I was the one in need of Jesus! Yes it was ME that God chose for such a time as this because in spite of it all I remain faithful to the cause of Christ I suffered in silence only God knew my heart and thoughts and he came, Jesus came in my presence on December 12, 2008 just to show me he cared all about what I was going through and he was proud of me because I never denied his Name or curse his name I always thought I was reaping what I sowed in the flesh. I survived it all through Jesus Christ whom strengthen me I survived thing that I never shared, I survived and guess what I am better because of it the trials and tribulation came to make me strong in the fullness of God!

As I said my final Yes to God on that morning I heard my Yes Completely Yes radiate out of me and I knew God was satisfied my Yes was real! God reward me with the elevation of Evangelist and Pastor of Evangelism. God is so good to me I had no idea Apostle was going to ordain me I was in total shock except for one thing God had already ordained and sealed me on that morning! It was not man doing but God he needed a YES from the depth of my soul and for me to understand what was required of Evangelist Annette Chesson Pastor of Evangelism. I was chosen for the cause of Christ to do the work of an Evangelist and Pastor his sheep, hallelujah! I WAS CROWNED IN HIS GLORY, SEALED WITH HIS ANOINTED AND EQUP TO DO A GREAT WORK, IN HIS PRESENCE THAT MORNING!

I just wanted to share that this morning nothing of myself but to Give God the glory for the great things he had done in spite of me! I am sharing this that you would Glorify my Father in heaven for perserving his daughter and keeping me from falling and most of all caring about ME. God cares about you, too! Remember that no matter what it looks like God is surely in control of heaven, earth and your process into greatness all God wants is a YES FROM THE DEPTH OF YOUR SOUL!

EVANGELIST ANNETTE CHESSON