Family, I am pulling my hair out right now.. Can someone please help me to understand the mind of a teenager? My daughter is now 15 and oh my God. Its like Doctor Jackal and Ms. Hyde. What’s up with the attitudes, mood swings and out right rebellion?. And to top things off she is “a cutter” For those of you that are not aware, a cutter is one a person who cuts on themselves to replace the sense of pain, and anger. Now this has made it very difficult for me to discipline, in fear that I will wake up and she would have caused more damage to herself than she wanted to.
She is now in and out of trouble in school, fighting, cursing, disrespectful toward adults and shows complete anger to family members. I just recently cut her phone off, disconnected her internet and placed her on house restriction because she purposefully went to school to start a fight and now she is suspended. I have placed her in anger management, therapy for the cutting and have gotten church counselors involved. Nothing is working and I am ashamed to admit that the last time I spanked her she swung and hit me and I completely lost it, to the point the I heard the voice of the Holy Spirit scream my name and when I looked at my child I had my hands around her neck.
I am sharing this story with you hoping that someone will read it and help me. I need my prayer warriors to help me out on this one. So please stand and agree with my prayer.. and if you have any ideas... Please share.....
Father, help my rebelling child, I am overwhelmed with worry. Have I raised this child, once little and carefree to have this happen? Will my dear one's mistake cause a lifetime of suffering? Is it all or partly my fault?
Forgive me O Lord, for the wrongs I have caused my dear child. Let me humble myself and ask this loved one's forgiveness. Let me offer no excuses. Cleanse my heart from bitterness and give me a pure, unconditional love. Grant me wisdom. Teach me when to be lenient and when to be firm. Help me that my motives will be pure, honest and aboveboard. Remind me often not to try fixing things.
Place your angels about my child. Protect from sin and harm and lead to your perfect will. Soften our hearts. Give us both a hunger to love and serve you. Now, dear Lord, I release control of my beloved child to you. I will trust you in every situation and timing. Even when I don't understand why, still will I trust and praise you. Though these troublesome times I know you are helping and keeping my dear one in your care.
Thank you for victories to come, Thank You hearing my prayers. Thank You that you can go places with my child that I can't. As the answers to prayers come, may I write them down and remember them. Praise You O God for your mighty works. In you I put my total trust.